Complicated :(

Things are getting complicated right now. Today is the start of October, and i just realized this is the month that we should celebrate our first year anniversary. Well, I'm afraid to face that day actually. I'm still talking to him, after a few months not communicating at all. Last week, he told me how he's still in love with me and how he misses all these memories and feelings but we're not meant together. I don't really know what to say but what I know now that we still love each other, that we still care but we just pretend not to.

He told me he deleted my facebook and skype account and we may not talk again after this. The fact is that we are still talking until now. I'm so afraid, I'm so afraid to fall in love in him again one more time. I'm still in love with him but I just don't want this feeling to grow more and more. I'm so afraid that he'll leave me again and well, I need to fix myself first. I'm not good enough for him and he's not mature enough for me. So I guess it's better for us to look on ourselves first.

I don't wanna lose him, I wanna hold him forever, but I know what I'm doing now is only keeping him on ground, keeping him being dependable to me. I want him to be indepedent and I don't know what to do. It's so complicated.  :(

5 Months

It's been 5 months since the day we broke up. I don't know what you feel about me but I still love you, no matter what. I really miss you, babe, I really wanna hug you, kiss you, hold you. I don't wanna let you go, never gonna let you go. I miss your presence beside me, I miss having dinner with you, counting on the stars, driving with you car, and everything we had done together.

You have changed, little boy. I don't know what actually happened to you. You are so different today. I just wanna cry, I stupidly let you control my life, again, just for the sake of you being nice to me. I don't what you want from this relationship, where do you want to bring this relationship. I think you just need someone to share, that's it, while I'm hoping more.

Well, nothing can change my mind, nothing can change me, but you.

ILYSM, DP :) Always.

I Wish You Were Here

Wish you were here, DP :(
I miss you.

Happy Birthday Timmy!

It's Timmy's Birthday, 1st September. It should be a 7.30pm surprise, we were there, in Wombat Common Room, hiding, while Lisa's calling Tim. We heard some voices, we were ready and Lisa shouted "Tim's not here!" An epic surprise, Tim went to his friend's house and practise soccer. Around 9pm, Time came home and we were ready to have the second surprise, and here we go!

Happy Birthday Timmy!

Lisa Christie Yahya Joy

Timmy!

Polaroid Time :D

I Love You, Always Do

After few months not really in contact, we started to talk again. Only some bbm everyday, some laughs, some stories to share and everything. I don't know, somehow I know that he doesn't want me anymore and somehow I just can't stop loving him. Every time I hear his voice, see his smile, laugh with him, and see his face, I just, miss him so much. I wish I could turn back time, but I know I couldn't. I wanna hold him, I wanna kiss him, I just wanna love him for the rest of my life. I recall these sweet memories in my head and well, he's there. He's still the same guy I was in love with.

Anyway, Happy 11th month Anniversary Used To Be.
ILYSM, DP :)