This is gonna be the last day staying in my bedroom. A bit nervous that I'm going to Australia tomorrow, staying in the new environment that I've never been there before. On the other hand, I am so excited, gotta have a new life there, a real fun, a real atmosphere to study and I'd be glad to be one of them.
I had a dinner with family tonight, not gonna have good chinese food there for such a very long time, like 4 months, but well, I threw it all again :(
He texted me and now we're still on the bbm. He asked for a meet up tomorrow noon before I leave. I actually wanna meet him like I miss him like crazy but I just can't. I can't hear his voice. I can't see his face. It makes me so hard to leave Indonesia. I tried to be as harsh as I can, but it didn't work. I softened down and I talked to him again. I know it will hurt me again. I know he won't text me tomorrow, he won't bbm when I'm in Australia. I just, I just can't deny I still love him and deep down here I still hoping for the best to come for us.
I don't knowwhere this will end but I hope there will be no bad dreams, at least for tonight and no more throw ups tomorrow morning, no more hardly breathe, too.
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