Rhythm of Love

I'm doing very fine today, with lots of laugh and love to share with people surrounds me. Waking up in the morning with swollen red eyes was a bad start and it was getting worse with my monthly period started. I wasn't so excited about today's hang out cause of last night tragedy. However, I prayed and I started to feel better.

The day started with meeting Miss Irene at Grand Indonesia to find a gift for Thomas Rosenkranz. We saw a monkey statue,  very cute, but then we decided to buy him a blangkon, the Javanese hat. He will love it :):) and a keychain of Indonesia batik pattern sandals. Next stop, TIN PAN ALLEY! While waiting for Tom to come, we ordered some drinks. We gossiped about so many things, about this little kid named B, about another named Z, about this and that. We shared a lot of laugh there with the kiwi and strawberry lemonade companies. After one hour waiting, Thomas came over with Miss Ivana. We ordered the food and talked about the improvisation of music. Some others talk about the gossips, still. I order Sauteed Mushroom Chicken Breast and it came last, while everybody had done eating their lunch and started to have their desserts.

Thomas Rosenkrans wearing blangkon

Sauteed Mushroom Chicken Breast

TIN PAN ALLEY :D

 Next round, Grand Indonesia, meeting my besties, the 5 of Genggong. Two others can come for several reasons. I miss them so much!! We stopped by the Haagen-Dazs Ice Cream and order the Fondue Chocolate Ice Cream. We talked and laugh. Eben read us her stories of boyfriend and her health problems. It was damn serious and I am so worried about her. I wish there's nothing bad gonna happen to her. I just love her too much, too much. There were some intermezzos by Karina and Cici that unexplainable in words. It was just so funny, haha. I miss those silly talks and laughs, and I wonder if I can hear those silly talks again when I'm in Australia. Karina cut her hair, by the way, and she looks brighter and younger of course. There's Valencia and Dessy, another besties of mine, the mommy and the wise. 

When Eben shared about the ex boyfriend of her, there were some advices around. These besties are so wise and kind. They tried very hard to calm Eben down and to cheer Eben up. The thing is, I know they're nice but I prefer to keep silent. Why? Because I don't feel the same. Those advices are not belong to me and it doesn't go to my mind. It was just too good to be true. I was so harsh. I have been and I am in one of my biggest pain. I am at the edge of my fall and I really know how does it feel. I don't think that those wise words work for me. 

They said that blocking facebook, deleting bbm contact whatsoever are so norak! I agreed, but now, it has changed. I don't care if my way is not wise, if my way is so childish, I don't care. The only thing I care about is my life. I need to move. I need to let go. I need to get over it. I need to wake up. I need to cheer up. I need to forgive myself. I need to see that there's a brighter future for me, and I am willing to do anything, like anything, bad or good, as long as it doesn't hurt anyone. I don't care if he or others think that I disrespect people or what. They just don't know who I really am and well, people usually judge the book by its cover. I am not going to give up this soon. I will survive, in any kind of situation, with any kind of steps. I will :)

Valen - Kitty - Eben - Karin - Cici - Dessy

Genggong with Chocolate Fondue, made by Valen

Toilet Time, Girls :D

 We went to Muji, Karin bought agenda and I bought stabilos :D hehe welcome new agenda with new colours everywhere. We walked and I found out that ZARA is ON SALE! God, so happy, gonna ask mommy to GI again tomorrow, so let's shop! Besties went home and I went to Social House, meeting Miss Irene and Ci Juliana, we talked a while and mommy picked me up.

End of story, I was so happy today and so excited to meet them again, soon. I can't deny that hanging out with them can stop me from thinking about him. But I have distractions. I have laugh and love with those people who really care about me. These things make me realize that I have to move on, whatever it takes. Yes, it needs time, but as long as you believe, as long as you keep on praying, there will be away.

Thank you for the rhythm of love that you sang to me :):):)