Entah apa yang buat gue nulis ini dan entah apa yang buat gue jadi begini. Setelah sebulan di Negeri Kangguru ini, gue sudah menemukan teman-teman baru dan lingkungan baru yang nyaman untuk gue. There is a guy I met in the house and I like him. I can't deny that I do. It's not the feeling of love, but I just like him, especially the way he smiles. Gue selama ini sering ngobrol sama dia, tapi karena keterbatasan bahasa, kadang ga seseru ngobrol sama orang Indo. Yesterday, gue denger dia lagi pergi, on a date. Gue pikir it was a joke, because of some reasons. And this morning, I found out, ternyata anak-anak lain juga tau, kalo he's into someone. Well, bohong kalo gue blg gue ga suka, karena gue brasa nyes aja gitu pas tau he's seeing someone. Di tengah kegalauan gue, dia tiba2 ketok kamar gue dan menanyakan sesuatu hal. I can see that, di rumah ini, dia deket sama gue dibanding sama cewe-cewe lainnya. He can ask the others to help him, but he asked me in the first place. Bikin galau.
Next, there's another guy, Chinese one. I don't know what but he seems very nice. He's too kind actually, dan gue takut dia ada apa-apa. I mean, gue takut dia pikir gue mau sama dia karena gue baik sama dia or anything. Gue cuma takut orang lain salah paham sama apa yang gue lakukan ke mereka, karena once again, I'm not seeing anyone and I'm not looking for relationship, at all.
Well, I keep on thinking on Dimas all the time. :(:(
I miss him so much and I'm not ready to leave my past, not yet ready.
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